It’s been a while…

Now I know that no one reads this any more, but what the hell, why not right? I just wanted to give everyone an update, even though I know no one will see it.
First off all, lore and I are still together, quite happily I might add. It’s been a wonderful few years. Our kids are growing at an astonishing rate (almost 7 and 6 now) and turning out far too much like us; our son is a suborn smart ass like me, and our daughter is a aloof but brilliant artist like lore. Lore no longer wears her collar out and about because we don’t want to draw unsavory attention toward our children, but we still live the lifestyle 24/7. We’ve got a nice home (finally) and we are doing pretty damn well if I do say so myself.

In more current news, I am having on of my boughts of insomnia tonight and got a wild hair up my ass and looked back over the huge conversation/argument that was had over at www.rageagainstthemanchine.com and feel a sense of heartfelt sadness to what transpired. Hell, even my responses on this blog sadden me a bit. I feel like I failed in communicating. I wish that I could have convinced them that I didn’t hate women, since the truth is quite the contrary. I wish they could have understood how much I adore my pet. I wish that they could see us in our happy home now. I wish they could see what their horrid name calling and accusations did to my lore. I hated seeing her that upset and sad, and I hated knowing that there was nothing she could say to the “rad-fems” that make them actually understand. I know (especially after reading 9-2 more recent articles) that it is outside the realm of what those particular women can accept, but I take pride in being a loving husband and father first and foremost. The fact that my wife and I choose to have our fun in that is risky (albeit measured) sexual activities with a dramatic flare doesn’t make us bad people. The fact that in doing what I do with my wife, we are both fulfilled and happy makes us a good couple and above all, good friends.

I love my pet/wife/friend/partner/everything, thank you again just for being you lore.

 

Voice

In which Voice discusses Ava-mouse…

Ava-mouse, the potential she had…

I am pretty sure that our chance with Ava-mouse has ended. As stated in lore’s blog we went to visit her on her home turf. I want to also set the record straight before I go on, we had NO intention of spending three days with her and making up our mind one way or the other, it just kinda happened.

The first night was blissful, if for no other reason the the fun I had with lore. It saddens me, however, that the pinnacle of our time with her was drinking and hanging out at a strip club on Bourbon Street. Now I liked Ava-mouse, and to some extent I still do, however, as of right now I do not believe her behavior would allow her to be a good addition to our family. After that first night, she began being rude and disrespectful toward both of us, but me in particular. Now, I never expected her to treat me as her Master, but I damn well expected the same level of respect I personally treat other people (especially friends) with. It hurt me that someone would treat my wife and I like, well, idiots. I hate being talked down to by people that have no right or authority over me, and she was guilty of that on more then one occasion. In addition she, after already being told it was an important subject, basically accused me of being a liar… that’s a BIG no-no. I mean really, what a way to let us know you were not really interested, right?

Let me ask anyone reading this a question… Say you were, for lack of a better word, applying to join an already established M/f family as a sub, would you openly disrespect and challenge the mental and emotion capacity of the Dom at every turn, or would you at least give them a reason to want to get to know you more?

I gave Ava a chance to make up for what she’d done but even now, two full weeks since, have yet to hear back… C’est la Vie…

Voice

In which I profess my love…

Nothing says “I love you” quite like carving “SLUT” in to the sternum of your wife with a razor blade after leaving welts and bruises up and down her torso…

Ah… it was a good night indeed…

Voice

1+1+1 = 3

So lore is seriously looking for a girlfriend for us. We’ve had a girlfriend before, and the last one (bella) was fun for a while, but became much less fun when the drama started. Lore started talking to a girl on collarme.com and it seems like she might work well, I just hope lore does find what she wants.

Voice

Shedding Skin and Breathing Clear.

I’ve decided that I’d like to get into better shape. Now, I do not think I am utterly out of said shape, but getting myself toned again, and having that old excess of energy I use to would be a major perk. I decided two things: quit smoking and buy Wii Fit. The smoking thing is giving me a little trouble, but I am making a go at it. I’m on ultralights and I am smoking less of them. The getting into a better physical form is working out pretty well. I like where I’m going.

I’m doing this for a couple reasons. One, I think it would behoove me to do so in the long run. Longer life and such. Also, I just think it would be fun to more easily pick up my lore with one hand. Pinning her up against the wall is just fun. Let’s not forget the advantanges it would grant for her wasabi candy too…

I wonder…

about the way I view things.

I am a Master. I am one not because I decided “Hey, I feel like controlling someone today.” I am not one because I have a violent or misogynistic nature. I am not a monster, nor am I a hateful person.

I am a Master. I am not an abusive husband nor was I an abusive boyfriend or fiancee. I support what my pet wishes and provide the environment that makes her feel the most comfort. I provide her with with the comforts and discipline she craves.

I am a Master. I own a person. A person gave their freewill to me. I am responsible for her well being and in turn I am granted obedience and servitude.

I am a Master. I love my pet. I love owning her.

There are times when I am confronted by people that believe what we do is wrong, those people can’t see our life the way we do, because I don’t believe they would have such a problem if they did.

I was sweat on by a guy, but I didn’t mind…

So Monday, lore and I went to a concert. It was incredible. It was in Austin, TX and it was my favorite artist: Chris Cornell. For those of you who do not know who that is, go listen to Soundgarden, Audioslave, Temple of the Dog, and some of Chris’ solo work. Just go, listen, and be in awe. Anyway, lore and I were lucky enough to be in the front, and to just have a fucking awesome time. Both of us were sick, but as the voice of Chris Cornell washed over us, we were solidly energized for the full concert. We jumped, screamed, and sang along as if nothing was wrong with us.

It was lore’s first concert and I’m pretty sure it was damn well worth the wait. We have so many memories to pass on, and so many stories to brag about just from one three hour concert. We will see him again…

And now the tables have turned.

Now it’s poor lore that is sick. Far sicker, in fact, then I ever was. Tending to her is stressful since even though she is normally not one to complain about anything, she turns into quite the whiner when sick. But hey, I love my pet/wife, I’ll keep trying to help until I succeed.

Why I am such a lucky husband…

So as I type lore is scanning some relationship-finding website to try and find us a girl. She honestly believes that it would be good for us both to have another. When we first got home from work, she pretty much started out talking about how we needed a “girlfriend”. For one thing, she could get some pussy. Jeez has lore wanted some pussy lately. I know she would never be satisfied with just a girl, but goddamn does she get in moods where she just wants nearly nothing more then a girl to touch and play with. Okay so reason two, I have issues myself. I get a weird relationship wanderlust when I stay with just one girl for too long. I get antsy and irritable. I know, I know, I sound like a pig, huh? It’s not that bad really, I just like a little variety sometimes. I’m very happy that lore understands that part of me as well as she does (then again she has been my best friend for six years).

Oh, and just in case you read this, thanks for the idea of OkCupid Meta…

In which you can see the ramblings of Voice…

So I would like to start by saying I hate being sick. All day today, I have been dreadfully sick. I worked all day and nearly passed out multiple times. My eyes were in a constant state of half closed (which is saying something since my eyes are already kind of squinty), my legs were tired and week, my joints throbbed with agony, and mind was as fog. I hated today.  Of course, yesterday was just as bad. This is day two of some sort of guerrilla attack on my immune system. I don’t even have the energy to order lore to do her normal evening actvities. Of course, lore has already told me she would take care of her normal things, as well as some extra just so we will not get too behind.

Anyway, I would like to stress the fact that the area we live in sucks, lore has been pining for some female interaction of a sexual nature, and prospects here are slim. She has been talking about finding a girl for weeks now, and I wish there was an easier way to find a “nice” girl for us. In this piece of shit city, there is NO out fetish community. Not one. We have a ONE gay club and that is about the only “outside of norm” kind of club we have. There is this one girl, Hana, but that is complicated.

I met the first real dom other then myself I’ve ever seen in this city the other day. Since lore and I are so into pseudonyms, i suppose I should come up with one for her… Barb, definitely Barb. I ran into Barb at a laundromat and something just made me want to talk to her. After a few moments conversation we descovered that we had similar… interests. Her pet is actually the manager of a local sex shop I frequent. Later that evening we went out to a bar and we had a nice little chat. River, Barb, lore, gwen (Barb’s pet), and Myself just hung out and had a drink and had a marvolous time. I think we may have some sushi next week… It was really refreshing to meet them, and I can’t wait until we hang out again.

In the mean time,  I just want my head to stop spinning…

Voice